Ten Days

written January 24, 2005

It started on a Friday, on a starlit Christmas Eve

You came and told me something that my ears could not believe.

You told me that you cared for me; you made my wish come true.

And happily I told you that I felt the same way too.

Christmas Day was perfect, my happiest so far.

You took my hand and held me close as we walked neath the stars,

You whispered sweet words in my ear and kissed me in the night.

We shared a perfect love and all the world just felt so right.

When Sunday came along I felt like walking on the clouds

We were so in love and of that fact we were so proud.

And everyone could see that we were now more than just friends,

Things kept getting better; I thought it couldn't end.

Monday was still special; I spent my whole day with you.

On Tuesday, both our families and all our good friends knew,

We drove around in your car in the dark and pouring rain,

Decided to commit; the feelings couldn't be contained.

But then on Wednesday, doubts and questions started creeping in,

We felt that things had gone too fast, and too soon to begin

We talked it over and you said that we should take things slow

There's still so much about each other that we didn't know.

Thursday...things had gotten strange. We seemed to drift apart.

Not hearing from you all day long put worry in my heart

And Friday rolled around; we shared the last day of the year.

And spending New Year's Eve with you somehow calmed my fear.

But New Year's Day was different; we did not talk at all.

You totally ignored me and did not return my calls.

Sick with hurt and worry, I then called you Sunday night,

You didn't understand me and it ended in a fight.

And that concludes the story; it was not the same again.

Until today I wonder 'bout just how and why and when

The love was lost so suddenly, it faded in the rain.

You simply have moved on and I am left with all the pain.

How could you fall in love and lose the feeling in 10 days?

While in my heart, it seems as though the feeling's here to stay.

And even as I try to heal and start to let you go,

Those were still the happiest ten days I'll ever know.

<3

written January 16, 2005

There I was, happy though alone

Simply existing,

Both feet on the ground,

I was content.

My heart was closed off

Under lock and key

Then you came along

You had the key

Opened the door

And suddenly my heart was free

To soar once more.

You pulled me up

And instantly

I was soaring on the wind

Flying high without a thought

Of ever falling.

You took my hand

And we glided carefree through open skies.

The wind in my face

And the sun in my eyes.

Then one day

Without warning

You simply disappeared

You let go of my hand

And I started to fall.

I looked around and called your name

Frightened and alone

I heard your voice

Somewhere behind the clouds

But you were nowhere to be found.

And so I kept falling

I crashed to the ground

I tried to scream

But it made no sound.

And so I lie here

Broken and wounded

I try to get up

But I simply can’t.

The wounds are deep

And may not heal

For quite some time.

I see you in the distance

But you can’t see me

And soon you will find

Someone else to fly with.

Now my heart asks

To be locked up again

The chain is there

But I lost the key.

And suddenly I remember

As I lie here alone

You took the key with you.

And all I can do

Is wait painfully here

For the wounds to heal

So that I can stand on my feet

And be happy again, though alone

To simply exist

And forget I ever flew with you.